gurl,
u r jus so impt to me,
deep in my hart...
10:34 PM
Monday, January 31, 2005
9+79+
u r jus so impt to me,
deep in my hart...
10:34 PM
544+
my papa dun lemmi go gym...KAO...sry brenda...yahs...nvm...nxt tym...
5:18 PM
310105
If I knew it would be the last time
That I’d see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
And pray the Lord,
your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time
That I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and a kiss
And call you back for more.
If I knew it would be the last time
I’d hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would videotape each action and word,
So I could play them back day after day
If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute,
to stop and say “I Love You”
instead of assuming you would know I do.
If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I’m sure you’ll have so many more,
So I can just let one slip away.
For surely there’s always tomorrow,
To make an oversight,
And we always get a second chance
To make everything just right.
There will always be another day
To say “I Love You,”
And certainly there’s another chance
To say our “anything I can do?”
But just in case I might be wrong
And today Is all I get
I’d like to say how much I love you
And hope we never forget.
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone
Young or old alike
And today may be the last chance
You get to hold your loved one tight
So if you’re waiting for tomorrow
Why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
You’ll surely regret the day.
That you didn’t take that extra time
For a smile, a hug,or a kiss
And you were too busy to grant that someone
What turned out their last wish.
So hold your loved ones close today,
And whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
And that you’ll always hold them dear
Take time to say “I’m sorry,”
“please forgive me,” “thank you,” or “it’s okay.”
And if tomorrow never comes,
You’ll have no regrets about today.
took dis poem frm brenda's blog...nice rite...veri touchin n motivating sia...2dae 4gt to bring chem file...dam! y iissit tt i olwaes 4gt to bring tt darn orange file...nvm...2dae nth happen much...pretty borin...had maths test...i tink can pass lar...can sumone tution me in maths!...yahx...keep failing my maths...sigh...after sku went sernagoon garden to mit yunlu. jess..den yujun oso came...wit her frens...she passed mi the cam den went bak to join her frens le...yups...den saw yunlu n jess eat lar...cos dey take so long to walk...by the tym dey cum i makan finish liaos...yahx...see dem eat lar...den jess tok bout the past of her n him...sigh...nvm...hu cares...yahs...den took 317 to central...den pei dem wait fer bus...den i ps jess lar...cos 317 cum liaos...den i wanna go home...yahs...tmr runnin again...mus train le...lata gt piano...dano if i shud go joggin norts lehs...i nid to study...i oso nid to train..alemak..danos lars...
3:34 PM
Sunday, January 30, 2005
gfcsf
alas....my dad is gettin new pool balls...cos 1 of dem is missin den cannot find...den gonna repair all the damm cue sticks...yahs....
o ya...i found out smth bout her n him in the past...i didnt noe so many tings...i didnt noe she lyk him n he lyk she...hahas...bud nvm...wads past has past...yeps...not point broadin over the past...
6:19 PM
230105
bloohs...i'm so damm tired...early mornin hc called mee...den i was still slpin...den ask mee go help...den i go ask my papa...den he sae kan...den mit hc at teh bustop dere..wait fer haf an hour lor..wait till i fall asleep...knn...den wen do until quite dis organised lehs...hahas...anihw do 1....yahx..i and hc do haf wae go dirnk milo...o ya...i 4gt to mention smth...both of dem were carryin plastic bag but i carry the trolly....kao...bully sia...dey lyk onli gt 1000 budden i gt mre den 2000 lars....kaos....take until almost mati...yahx...did almost the whole of serangoon lors...waliew...den went my haus to take shoe bag...den go hc haus...ken bathe...den went sernagoon mac...dey go study...den i go giv out...v fast larsss...yahx...den bak hme nw lar...v tired....
5:14 PM
Saturday, January 29, 2005
290105
2dae...left haus w/o the shoe bag nw ent hougang...den jus remeber i 4gt to bring the shoe bag fer rae...den called my mama...ask my mama bring to heartland..den make me wait haf a n hour sia...knnn...den dey cum tell me dun haf...den i run home...damm long lar the distance...was pantin lyk siao wen i reached hme...den took the bad and went toa payoh...den i n ken went long john to makan...den rae came...den went novena...the damm tution centre nw so damm small lar...ive gotta squueze lyk siao lar...make me feel so fat...knn...nxt tym i go drere bring pen enuff liaos...wahlau eh...after lesson tcher tok to jingwen n hazel...sae wad ppl complain dey noisy...knn sia... u xpect totalli quiet meh...everione will jus fall asleep one lars...tt person tt complain damm stupidd larhs...den dey mebbbe quitin...sigh...den if dey quit den rae will quit...sigh...den yujun lyk still wanna join lorhs...den i lyk dun reali haf ani frens dere sia...other den tt zhao xuan and a few others...alemak...den went douby gaut wif hazel,jingwen n dano hu...den rae 4gt to take the shoe bag frm me sia..alemak...hazel went to mit her frens... den i n the gals go buy jw's mama food...den go off liaos...yepsss... tonite suppose to go wit jianquan go the youth concert de...budden cant b bothered lar....gt guest star...sylvester sim,zhang dong liang...n blah blah blah...cant be bothered
DAMM...my father's cumin bak todae...if he cum 2dae means i gt no more freedom sia...nw everi sun muz stae at hme liaos...until he go overseas...wth...was intendin to go plcc the co one cos vivian ask mee...guess no hope le...muz wait till after chi new yr bahs...yahs..which is super super long time to me lars...sigh...nvm..at least my dad can tution me in my maths...my maths seriously horrible until cannot horrible lar...failin all maths test...n i failed my enlgish...i damm scared i retain lorhs...
6:49 PM
Friday, January 28, 2005
280105
2dae didnt bring fone to sku....tout gt spotcheck... end up dun haf...knn sia...den went hme...den went mit jess...blardy jess made me wait so long...den rae cum...yahx...study lorh...den went tution...hc quit...sighhh...nvm
11:36 PM
Thursday, January 27, 2005
hffhgf
okae...ermm...cca i gt praised!! even thou i pon sho many tym...dey praise mee sae wad my hand shake until veri nice...hahas...den again blardy joshua is lyk go 1 rnd n shoot mee lar...he's lyk wad u noe sum members the attendance is horrible...-looks at me---...wadeva...sigh...i gt quardratic eqn or smth liddat de shet...sigh...n i dano hw to do
7:34 PM
270105
slpt at 1am cos i didnt do finish my maths hw...damm 2dae...again..another maths homework i dano hw 2 do...damm sia...sighs..dunnit slp liaos...bak hme fer a while...gg bak sku...fer cca...dun feel lyk sia...yahx...nth much lars...dano if i shud bring fone tmr...tmr mebbe haf spot check sia...wahliew....
1:50 PM
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
260105
i almost got banged down by car...scary sia....danos y....sigh...wad if i rreaeli gt banged down...CHOY!! i wun...i hope....2dae nth much happen lars...nth reali big...i dano y...i nw resort to cuttin my wrist...dunno y...sigh...my penknife is stained wif blood...
10:00 PM
260105
i almost got banged down by car...scary sia....danos y....sigh...wad if i rreaeli gt banged down...CHOY!! i wun...i hope....2dae nth much happen lars...nth reali big...i dano y...i nw resort to cuttin my wrist...dunno y...sigh...my penknife is stained wif blood...
10:00 PM
260105
i almost got banged down by car...scary sia....danos y....sigh...wad if i rreaeli gt banged down...CHOY!! i wun...i hope....2dae nth much happen lars...nth reali big...i dano y...i nw resort to cuttin my wrist...dunno y...sigh...my penknife is stained wif blood...
10:00 PM
260105
i almost got banged down by car...scary sia....danos y....sigh...wad if i rreaeli gt banged down...CHOY!! i wun...i hope....2dae nth much happen lars...nth reali big...i dano y...i nw resort to cuttin my wrist...dunno y...sigh...my penknife is stained wif blood...
10:00 PM
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
sigh
sumtyms, i reali nid you by my side
if i break down and cry,wad will u do
jus pretned u noe nth?
or stand by me?
i try to live everidae as a new leaf
4gtin bout ystd's incident
but im still human
i have emotions
i have a limit that i can accept
have u eva took a step back
n think
have you ever loved him
have u ever considered of being wif him
if the answer is a no
tell him straight
hurt him now den later
many sleepless nights thinkin of you
have i ever thought of givin up
yes
many times
i truly couldnt take it
it was a burden i couldnt carry
but i was scared
scared of losin her
perhaps i aint impt in her life
but all i wan her to noe that she is
in my life that is...sigh
-cried
10:14 PM
whre u?
sumtyms i reali nid u...sigh
10:08 PM
whre u?
sumtyms i reali nid u...sigh
10:08 PM
whre u?
sumtyms i reali nid u...sigh
10:08 PM
250105
in the mornin was a bad start...kept thinkin bout the tings i shudnt be tinkin of...yahs...den durin PE...run lar...saw herman sia..wad a fcuker...nvm...nth mnuch happen...went fer mr lim's xtra lesson budden i 4gt to bring his notes...den spent the whole lesson slpin...dammit sia...den after tt pon co...went keivn haus...dne i bluff my mom sae i tio heatstroke...den slack at kevi haus till bout 6...den left...yahx...nw at hme...realised i gt a lot to study...yahx...cant slack!! anione tmr wanna goooo study...
7:29 PM
Monday, January 24, 2005
240105
2dae sku gt nth much happen...dio birdshet on the head...suay mans...den i went hme...bathe...den went out again...was late...den study fer a while...den hongchow and don came...later... yujun left...den don n yunlu left...den gt mee xb n hc...den we toke lar...jus wead i nided actualli...ayhx...toke abt reali a lot of tings...sigh...relationship? studies? studies is the only thing that seperates me from a relationship...ive realised i change lyk totally since last year...i wasnt reali bothered abt studyin last yr...but nw...it changed...
Relationship
i and her
u and me
she and him
he and she
issit reali possible between the 2 of us?
i wished it cud......
i wished....
7:51 PM
Sunday, January 23, 2005
230105
SHO SORRIE TERESA!!
she went sernagoon gardden mac instead of central mac...yahs
wasted her bus fare...sho sry...budden i treat her drink...yahx...todae suppose to study...damm mans...ended up critisin my english...issit reali tt lousy? sigh...i didnt do ani of my work i planned to do lars...yahs....nth much happen todae...jus tt rae gt pissed...shaldnt toke much bt it...yahs...
7:34 PM
Saturday, January 22, 2005
220105
feelin real tired now...mornin woke up late fer kens match...den made ken n rbenda wait...sry ar...budden i paid the cab fare...no fair!!hrmpfs...yahx...dey lost against naitonal team...xpected lar...den went ken haus...den went tution...kinda borin...olmost fell asleep...buddne thx to rae sia...cannot slp...keep luffin...den went haertland...met jianquan,yujun,don,yunlu,jess....yahx....den go sernagoon den go dunman...performace....canna sai lar....dunno y i get sho pissed wif deir concert...sigh...den after tt went heartland to mit rae n her bro...den ate...den went hme...nw...yahs...real real tired
11:11 PM
Friday, January 21, 2005
210105
2dae had tution in the mornin...den went j8...met jeremy n hc..den went ken haus...stayed dere fer a while den left...we distributed lyk 3000?..danos...den went to mit yunlu..yahx...i bought 1 jeans...den went hme...nw lars...gt scolded by my mum...she was lyk y u buy jeans ar...u gt 2 jeans still buy...tt's y i dun wanna giv up monie...sigh...nvm...feelin kinda low....dunno wads happenin...i k feel tt smth bad is gonna happen
6:12 PM
Thursday, January 20, 2005
200105
11:54 PM
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
180105
8:33 PM
Monday, January 17, 2005
170105
sku was crap...freakin peter mark sabo don low lorhs...fcuker sia...mus go bash him up...arsehole...after sku went to mit yujun....den go brenda haus...went to the gym...budden gt chased out cos we werent the residents...went to tenis court...we carry all the bag lar...supper udper heavy...yahx...i didnt play...jus ran...thought of sum tings...yahx...den went hme fer moi pinao...lesson den 1h...bout haf an hour nia...den went brenda haus to study....den gooo hartland to mit yunlu...met rae...den bought my books all dese...yunlu pei mi fer dinner sia...sho gud rites...hahas...moi cousin was dere surprisingly...saw him wif his stead... yah...dey keep lookin at yunlu...den yunlu dun lyk...sho fanri...den she keep hititn mee wif my magazine sia....poor mee...den gt slap by her 2 tyms n 1 punch...
11:03 PM
Sunday, January 16, 2005
160105
2dae woke up at 11+....hc came to do his stuff den ken came...den dey left to mit rae...i stayed at hme...change the damm light at my livin room..sho damm high...i climb up the ladder superb scared lor....den uncle mac came...den entertain the children fer a while...den finally had the tym to do my hist notes...nort even half done mans...wth...nvm...gonna continue duin...dun wanna slack....musnt fail...tmr gg gym
7:44 PM
Saturday, January 15, 2005
150105
2dae woke up at 5...den went to bathe bursh teeth change den went sku...waited fer lyk almost 3hs jus to perform a song tt is less den 5 mins...wth...v scary 2dae...cos its my 1st tym standin on the outside...yahx...means if i go rong everione will noe cos veri obvious....yahs...den played lyk shet lar...mebbe cos we didnt trust joshua...yahx...den i left early...headed fer hartland to mit rae n ken....den ate at bk...den jw n hazel came...den left fer town le...at station saw yujun wif her frens...den reach tution...new bird sia...n the tupid english workshit make mee feel real shit lar...sho damm freakin hard...wen i first saw was lyk HAR!?!...shocked...den gt to noe 1 sec 4G guy...yahx...den after tution went ps plae arcade fer a while den go off liaosss....yepps....nw at hme...gonna stardee lata....
5:20 PM
Thursday, January 13, 2005
130105
2dae i slpt at ms ho lesson...sibei borin...sho jus doze off...den i sleep until damm shiok lor...slp until i drool sia...sho pai seh...den ben shock mee...almak....yahx...den went joo seng fer a while...den go back sku fer cca...quite slack...den joshua went to conduct fer the sec 1 orinetaion ting..damm farni sia..conducr xactly lyk Chew KH...hahas...i kept luffin...yahx...den tmr gt rehearsel...sians...dano wad tym finish sia...yahx...den sat perofmrance until bout 5 leh...kao...y sho late ar...nvm...i bluff moi amam sae finish at 7....
sigh.. i jus realised starhub prepaid gt giv free sms sia...i wanna change sia...budden betta nort...if nort veri inconvienet for everione...yahx...
7:35 PM
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
110105
2dae had PE...ran 3km...came in 12th position...quite lousy larsss....wahlau...tt melvin low run until dam dam fast sia...yahx...after sku go pl mit rae n gt the fone frm my dearest ah bu...thx ah bu..den went bak hme...wen i go bak hme gt a lot of ppl sia...fiona,brenda,eugenia,kevin n my bro...dey plaein wif dog...yahx...den stae fer a while rae go off le...pei her go bustop...den we walked to hartland...den went back...den met rae again n ran to hartland...den mit my ah bu...den i go hme...nw lors...yepss....tmr plannin to go sernagoon stardee
8:50 PM
Monday, January 10, 2005
100105
slpt at 1...woke up at 5.45...sku kinda borin lahs...nth much happen...after sku went ot mit wen qi....den follow dem go orchard...dey were findin bikini lars...den i n don findin the yellow band...buddne cannot find...i got myself my OWN hi card...the number quite ez to remeber...wun sae nw yet till i gt a temproary fone...yahs...hopin to get 1 frm my ah bu...she sae she gt 1 8250...yahx...i used my dad fone to test sia...den put bak the card nid pin code...i try 2 tyms le...if 1 mre tym sim card block sia...betta nort try...yahx...gg to stardee
6:07 PM
Sunday, January 09, 2005
moi new shirt
9:23 PM
dog finally lookin at cam
9:22 PM
helpin the dog to wear clothes
9:22 PM
090105
i'm sho tired....danos y...keep slpin...yahx...n moi mom lemmi a fone to use onli wen i go out...means...she took the fone bak...yahx...nvm...savin monie to buy a hi card n top up card....yeeepppsss...i heaven done my homework yet...gosh...summore heaven memorize the chem yet...shet....
6:54 PM
Saturday, January 08, 2005
dog 3
10:28 PM
doggie close up
10:28 PM
dog 2
10:27 PM
walkin
10:26 PM
doggie
10:26 PM
Thursday, January 06, 2005
060105
2dae went sku wif a blardy heavy bag...dammit sia...carry till shoulder pain...kept slpin in klass 2dae...den after sku had cca...went joo seng 1st...yeps...slack lar fer cca....yeps...nth much lars...yahx...
8:18 PM
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
050105
2dae was sho crappish...mr varella taught us physics...den his lesson was 1.5 h...he was lyk i use ruler measure dis.measure tt...blah blah...make until all of us sho slpy...den he lyk... i giv ur 5 mins of brk...he heaven start 5 mins...the whole klass all slpin le...hahas...sibei borin...den el gt english test...anihw do cos i was slpy...dammit confirm fail...after sku...went serangoon mrt wif ken to mit brenda...saw fiona n eugenia...den went town...far east...den heeren...den taka...den slack at library...den i went off while dey went esplande...i bought a yellow band...yepps...gonan stardee soon...
5:50 PM
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
brenda coverin her face
7:49 PM
eugenia looks sho ah ma!! =x opps
7:49 PM
040105
2nd dae of sku....felt real slpy 2dae...danos whie...in sku nth much happen lars...kinda borin...yahx...after sku go chomp chomp dere n eat...den kev n hc came moi haus...den brenda n eugenia came...yahx...brenda came to do her chi shet...den eugenia duin dano wad...we took the ribbon and spray dem...ahahas...sho fun!...ypes...den walked to hartland...haf wae detour to playgrnd...went popular...saw sarah choo den saw rae wif her dad...ya...den went hme lols...tmr dano go whre sia...sigh. i miss you
7:41 PM
Monday, January 03, 2005
030105
2dae 1st tym go 3J...damm scary...all the retainess...den gues wad...i'm the monitor of 3J...hahas...2dae sku finish at 10.30...den ken.ben.hc.kev.xb.don.j ho came moi haus to slack...yeppps...den go hartland...i'm intendin to get a fone....without my parents eprmission...shhh...=x...hi card....one of dese dae mus go second hand shop n get the card...intendin to get the POD tt 1 cos don sae cheaper the rates...ya...den go buy top up card....fone..erm...danos leh...anione gt spare fone...mebbe if hc k find his 8250 den i take frm him lorhs...yahx...den went to mit rae...dammit it was rainin lars...den we were lyk guys under the umbrella waitin fer jus a ger...den ken lost his temper....i was oso kinda pissed lars...lyk waitin fer sumone quite long under the rain summore...saw jojo den passed her teh penafold...den wait fer cui...buay tahan sia...k xplode lar...den go makan...den yu jun n ah bu came...den went hartland...yu jun had to go to her tution...den ah bu follow mee go popular...help mee buy books...yahx...gonna stardee hardddd
6:24 PM
Sunday, January 02, 2005
020105
its the 2nd dae of 2005
yeps...
2dae pracitcali slacked at hme...
had afternoon nap
den ate dinner
den go buy socks
pretty bored 2dae...
hu kares
tmr sku reopens
hahas
kinda happie
yepppssss
mee in long pants..ahaha
9:44 PM
Saturday, January 01, 2005
ting
sho bored 2dae...noody toke to mee den doze off...den woke up...guess wad...my mom didn't save another food fer mee sho gud rite...den jus starve lor...still feelin slpy...yeahs...kinda miss herrrr.....[-.-"]...nvm...
Yunlu:
lao bu!2005 olreadi...sho fast hors...mus stardee hor...dun keep plaein...mus b lyk ur er zi oso kae...stardee dammm hard.....yepss...my best godma!! read dis sure feel veri happie rites...hahas...
Yu Jun:
ers? dun reali noe wad to sae....jus stardee lar....2nd best klass erm...kae...jus stardee n get below 10 points yeah...ilu*
Jessica:
wierd sia...u frm my mei bcum till my brother n i bcum ur sister...wtf...nvm...sec 2 liaos...work hard...go into gud stream...ya...dun b lyk ur sister...go into such a lousy stream...yahxx....
Rachel Koh:
eh! 2005...no more 2004...bygones r bygones...rites...yahx...new year n a total new start...the past is history...yeah...dis yr b mre guai a bit leh and stardee mre leh...den nxt tym k go out wif us the countdown...hahas...
Brenda:
haf no idea y am i ritin u dis...jus stae cheerful lar...durin the chalet keepin tinkin bout him....can tell tt u cant 4gt of him...erm...erm....ya...schl reopen mit u in mornin again...yep
Ken:
bro! 4gt bout past...gonna c u in scool v soon n in long pants...hahas...ya...nth much to sae lols =x....even though dis few daes u nv hang out wif us...nvm...jus find back ur touch in bball and...mus quit smokin...
Hong Chow:
oie!! y u sho clever...onli sec 1 same klass as u lor...if onli u were nort sho clever den we cud b int eh same klass...no lars...jkjk...nort bad lar...seein u soon too...ahhas....jus take care bro...
Don:
don...u oso another clever fellow sia...new beginin yah...4gt bout jw all dese...get a new 1...confirm u k find 1 gud 1....hehes....
8:12 PM
another 1
8:11 PM
too bored...den took my jersey...
8:11 PM
5465
gooshhh...i keep bloggin...nvm....yahs...jus nw moi dad toke to mee...
dad: nigel, can u dun b sho hiong
me: har!? i whre gt hiong
dad: den wad u tink u are?
me: acceptable
dad: i wan you to concentrate on ur studies...no more goin out until siao okae and no more bring of fone into ur room and toke until 2-3 am...
me: -rolls eyes- orrrrhhhhh....
walks off
hahas....cant go fer eugenia concert...mans...moi dad grnd mee until scool reopens...wich is...in 2daes tym i will get bak my freedom...hahas....budden i cant mit her...aiyo....nvm nvm...
hey yooo!!awake olreadi?hafin ur O's dis yr...super duper big xamination...mus block awae all distractions n concentrate...stardee hard...plae hard oso...hors...dun stardee till nerd nerd liddat hor
2:23 PM
newyr
My new year resolution:
1.be wif herr...yeps
2.stardee well...try to get pure
3.grow taller
4.mre clothes
5.mre frens
6.mre bags
issit? tt's all? o yar...
7.b a better bro fer my buddies
yeppps
1:48 PM
010105
HAPPI NEW YEAR EVERIONE....YEAR 2005!!
THX EVERIONE FER BEIN DERE FER MEEE
WEN I'M DOWN....YEPS...ESPECIALI MY BROS....YEPSSS
suppose to go sentosa...den we walk to the bridge...dene nd up dey sae cannot walk past...knnn...den jojo was lyk g orchard...den okae lors...went to mit jojo frens...issac dey all lars...dunno y c dem onli bu shuang...danos lar...c dem lyk wanna fight liddat lors...fcueer....den mee.lulu.brother.hc.christabel went go walk walk lor...den a lot of sprayin...den buay tahan we went to go buy cans...spray lyk siao...saw teresa n jiarong....hahs....stupid indians...spray mee until whole head lars...fucker....den i gt 1 bruise gt dey took the nozzle and push hard into my hand...den dio slap by the can...i tupid indian go swing his hand...den whack my face...i was lyk...chee bye...ahahs...nvm...=x...den yujun followed us...took the train back...we went kovan...den go 7 eleven...went mac to sti...den sent yujun hme...den we cabbed hme...5.80 sia...sho ex...den hc came over moi haus to stae...den we ate a lot of tings lar...1 whole pkt of sausage n 1 whole can of luncheon meat n instand noodles...den after tt called yujun...i guessed she was slpin....yah...den call my lao bu...toke until 5?issit?arnd dere....yar...den i put down cos the fone lyk no mre batt le....den i saw the kitchen light on..splendid sia...dey sleep shiok shiok wake up i heaven sleep yet...alemaks...den went to slp cos was real tired...yars....
i dreamt tt i was wif eu..together.....real close...
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