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Thursday, August 31, 2006

didnt go sku 2dae!!
haha
slack at home
actually is sleep la
almost whole day
and play o2 jam
rather fun sia


Nigel blogged at
9:55 PM

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

maths was ez crap
haha
hopin for a2
geog
was bad
real bad
had lil knowledge
gonna fail
gonna depend on ss
work v hard on that
ater exams
went to dentist
i was scoldin myself for being so crazy
go ther to torture myself
zz
after tt went town to mit jasmine and yeung eun
walk walk
went home
on the way home met mingchin
yeah
than ben also
haha
nothing much

IM GONNA PON SKU TMR
1ST TIME IN 06
HAHA


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10:54 PM

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

FFELING VERY TIRED
I DID NOT DID MY BET FOR THI PAPER EITHER
SHIKES
2 LANGUAGE PAPER NOT DONT PROPERLY
IM FAR TOO TIRED
DUNNO WHY
ARGHHS
COMEON
GOTTA TAHAN
DONT DO THSI TO ME
I WANT THE MARKS BADLY


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1:27 PM

Monday, August 28, 2006

while on my way to central to mit sarah
i saw my sku discipline master!
mr koh
haha
he went to my haus ther eat char siew rice
lol
then walkin to mrt station
i accompanied him
talk him
yea
after mitin sarah
went to mit my mom
nth much le


Nigel blogged at
8:43 PM

Breaking Free

a song from high school musical. very meaningful lyrics. the startin is in spanish in think. yea. about the gilr dont dare to start singing


Nigel blogged at
6:05 PM

ive extremely tired!!
thats bad
i did my paper like half awake?
for p1 i wrote discussive
not a very wise choice
p2 i did the first few parts until i super sleepy
took a short rest
did summmary rather awake
shikes
tha passage is hard
tmr chinese!
work hard nigel!!!
wed got dentist appointment
dam
i hate it


Nigel blogged at
2:08 PM

Sunday, August 27, 2006

i guess whenevr my dad talks to me
i just keep pullin a balck face
why?
dunno
jsut rather irritated perhaps


Nigel blogged at
12:25 PM

Saturday, August 26, 2006

have u ever felt like there is something pressing very hard on your shoulder?
like a ghost pressin?
have u ever felt something squeezin ur hand so pain that u can bearly flex it?
izzit black magic
nahs
im thinkin too much

anways
my dad forbids me to go church again
liar liar liar
i got no more to say
like cannot trust him any more liao lah
keep lyin one lei
whatever.

bleghs
im tired tired tired
jasmine broke with ken
rather bad timin
prelims is on mon and this happens
its so gonna affect his results


Nigel blogged at
6:27 PM

i forgot to mention my 2.4 timin!!
10.53!
if im not wrong got vast improvement
yays
ms tan durin our last lesson
gave us a pilot pen
with the word "even eagles need a push"
so nice eh

fri after sku
went heartland for a while
then go home
changed
went town
kevin pang seh sia
zz
i was withkiahwee and kelly
bought stuffs lor
then went home
put stuffs down
went out for tution again
actually wanted to slack at cartel first
but the traffic jam at gardens is really horrible
so never lorhs
tution was so productive for the first time
tcher said i wasnt serious
thats why i got a 6
was i?
no idea
just work hard now nigel
urm
oh yah
yeung eun [however izzit spelt?]
somehow noe i brk with joce
like how she will know!!
she say hear hear soembody talkkin
but she never say who!!
ahhhs
who is spreadin
oh mans
after tution
allmost everyone from tution went to makan
which is like 4 out of 5
caus nelson had to go off
yahh
ate at chomp chomp
jasmine eats real s l o w
me and hc ate 2 servings she not dont yet
then her neighbourhood frens came
1 guy rather pissed me off
but nth happen
miraculously
i though i would have just stood up and stared at him
but i just luff it out
haha
went home
bathe
SLEEP
yea
was dead tired

2days?
cant go cell
so i guess doin english paper, revise geog, and chi


Nigel blogged at
8:42 AM

Thursday, August 24, 2006

damm
evan kong challenge me in chem
aida's expectation for my chem
tution teacher's expectation for chem
my own expectation for chem
IM AM SO DAM STRESS
can u imagine how much pressure i am sufferin
i really hate this stress thingy lah
sometimes it works real well
but it really brings me real down lah
can just keep cryin one
feeling super emo lahs
DAM!
han lee kwan's xtra lesson thingy
ive decided to giv up
he ask me go call 4F's douglas
nickname nugget
zz
after sku went to mit hc
asked abt douglas
han lee kwan anyhow touch douglas thats why he dont want
i dont trust him
i trust god
even thou he says 95% of failin
but whatever
i can do it

please gimme the strength
im feelin really very angry, very tired as the days go by
fill me!
amen


Nigel blogged at
10:28 PM

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

stress stress stress
i can be like so tensed for no reason
so emo that things start recollectin back
AHHH!!!


Nigel blogged at
10:38 PM

ORALS DOWN
well
the theme is about sports
picture description mayb wasnt done thatwell
coversation qn
1. talk about an occasion that u participated in an event in your neighbourhood

i was thinin real hard
yea
decided to talk about mizuno run
say that i won some teachers.
PROMPT:WHAT DO U THINK COULD BE DONT TO ENCOURAGE PPL
i seirously cant remember what i said
except sayin that my motivation of runnin is the shirt
caus i really like it
haha

2. is family important in your society
well
i was caught off guard
tonguetied
just say family is my pilar of support
yea
i think 2nd qn was not v well done


Nigel blogged at
5:37 PM

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

just now on channel 8 the 7pm show
qianyun like xianghai
than xianghai shy
dont dare admit
than qianyun went to him
kissed him on the cheek then said she loved him
WOW EH
haha
imagine that happenin to me
BLAH BLAH
IM DREAMMIN AGAIN
haha
shud be studyin
tmr oral im the last fella!
hopefully i dont doze off while waiting for my turn to take oral sia


Nigel blogged at
8:41 PM

i went to have my haircut and my bro said it was no diff!
lol
anways
i was the 2nd earliest to leave mr lim class
he say finsih can go off
but he took 1 hour to go throguh my paper with me
its not that i never do
its just the english not perfect
zzz
today lots of work to be done
esp hist,chem,phy.
ayh all subs lah
and my oral is tmr!!
=\


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4:40 PM

Monday, August 21, 2006

gettin a hair cut tmr
not long lah
just thick i guess
and since wed im havin my oral
go ther with short hair looks neater
but i tmr end sku at 325!!
so late
by the time go bishan dunno what time liao
zz
alot of ppl are bannin themselves from the com
i guess i will nid to do the same too eh
anyways
blog about today
went to mit ah ma @ heartland
to pass her the comb bio stuffs
than me, ken and don eat at kfc
met gerald,javier and junde
they were smokin outside kfc
zz
ive changed for god peeps!
haha
no more smokin
tution @ raffles city mos
super comfortable lah
can doze off one

oh bother
really hope mr lim will dismiss early sia
end 345
reach bishan 4
wait to cut hair and cut hair
430
reach home 5
sian
almost whole day would be gone liddat la


Nigel blogged at
9:53 PM

god is so amazin
he put a vision into my brain
as in who to approach to church
while i was bathin!!
haha


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8:29 PM

Sunday, August 20, 2006

EMO FOR TODAY
I WAS SO STRESSED THAT I LIED DOWN ON MY BED
AND THEN STARTED CRYIN!?


Nigel blogged at
5:50 PM

hmmm
just doin some day dreamin
the last time i ran was thurs
2.4 timin of 14mins
wasnt pantin at all
was i like this b4 i became so enthu in runnin?
haha
19 nov
vertical marathon
its on the weekend that my Os officially end
shud i join?
im thinkin so
haha
if not my next event will really be standard chartered
how long will i take to run 10km by then sia
im hopin to hit below 45 mins
previous timin of 52 to 45
abit overally ambitious hor
cut down by 7 mins
haha


Nigel blogged at
11:14 AM

im worried about simon
mayb he c i never go then he neva go?
dunno.
han lao pei's black magic crap is freakin me out the more i think of it
zz

son
put on the armour of god daily
and you will be safe


Nigel blogged at
10:57 AM

"Dance With My Father"
Back when I was a child, before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high and dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around ‘til I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved
If I could get another chance, another walk, another dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
How I’d love, love, love
To dance with my father again
When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way, I would run from her to him
He’d make me laugh just to comfort me
Then finally make me do just what my mama said
Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me
If I could steal one final glance, one final step, one final dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
‘Cause I’d love, love, love
To dance with my father again
Sometimes I’d listen outside her door
And I’d hear how my mother cried for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me
I know I’m praying for much too much
But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don’t do it usually
But dear Lord she’s dying
To dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dream

touchin lyrics eh


Nigel blogged at
12:03 AM

Saturday, August 19, 2006

GOOD LUCK TO PPL DOIN NEW BALANCE REAL RUN TMR
EVAN,JONTHAN,MR DENNIS KOH,MR NICK KOH


Nigel blogged at
11:44 PM

com reformatted again
my clever bro reforamt with thumb drive in
so
yea
thumb drive with all my impt stuffs all disappeared
arghs
zz


Nigel blogged at
10:59 PM

plenty of work to be done!!
heartland pasa ma lam i saw a adidas sling bag
rather nice
but dunno real or fake 25 bucks
blegh
anyways
this weekend is all study
my dad said next week or followin week i shud be able to go church
yays!
=D

im gonna save money to buy the book
i kissed dating goodbye
and
he chose nails
both christian books
oh yes
russel lee comin my sku
guess i will buy some books from me too


Nigel blogged at
1:21 PM

Friday, August 18, 2006

should i sell tickets for krunk @ sentosa?
5-8 bucks comission
but if i sell means i gotta go down for that party
ZZ
and i shud be studyin for prelims!


Nigel blogged at
10:07 PM

plenty of work to be done!!
i thought i lost my hist tb
actually it was inside one of my bag
lol
after sku went with ken to heartland to eat KFC
saw edinna
yunlu
hazel
yea
nth much


Nigel blogged at
4:08 PM

Thursday, August 17, 2006

oh yes
my chi teacher
mr han lee kwang
giv me a month to find a gf
if i dont find a gf
he wont use black magic to help my chinese grades
wth sia


Nigel blogged at
5:42 PM

i guess almost everyday i have been bloggin that im tired
haha
usual lah
sku was nth much
PE did runnin
went to scold the slow runners
so called to spur them on lah
mr koh giv the fast runners permission
dam fun lah
just keep scoldin them
then they cant stop runnin
i keep forcin aron and zhi hao
haha
because of my aron passed!
=D


Nigel blogged at
3:40 PM

Wednesday, August 16, 2006


erms
picture taken by hc with rae and birdie
haha
wierd eh
at macs
lols
anyways was at heartland studyin
varron,xinyi, tang and weikang were ther
i was studyin with rae and hc
yunlu was ther, minghwee also
so was priscilla
it seems like i noe so many peeps
haha
goin to bed soon
nights


Nigel blogged at
10:58 PM

SLEEPY SLEEPY AGAIN
DIDNT OVERSLEEP TODAY
anyways
sku was v slack
xb fone got confiscated
bleghs
ken woke up late didnt come sku
tution cancelled
rather brief eh
haha


Nigel blogged at
2:52 PM

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

TIRED TIRED TIRED
drag myself out of bed again
overslept by abit
haha
hist dam sian
ms tan didnt come today
got this tcher called mr koh
super got attitude problem one
confiscated both of tze wei fone
zz
did the hist work halfheartedly
then went for recess and so on
maths was the worst
i really sit down and force myself to do finsih cartesian plane
mr lim ystd told me
"dont do finsih ur funcctions homework and dont go home"
just now
"dont finsih ur cartesian plane and dont go home"
cana threatened
zz
than he suddenly
"nigel!. u will go home the last"
than i was so shock
i went "BASKET!"
then the whole class AWWWWW.MR LIM, HE SAID IT IN YOUR FACE
haha
rather humorous


Nigel blogged at
5:29 PM

Monday, August 14, 2006

fun weekend is over.
time for serious studyin
well
i overslept today
woke up at 615
was rushin
but i managed to do smth i never did b4
i went to my bed
changed in my sku u
and just kneel down before my bed to pray
just felt that the holy spirit wanted to administer to me
started prayin
my heavy heart started to change
great way to start the day eh
day was fine
assmebly
had mr thomas chua to talk about his experience
he is paralysed from back down due to one night he was drunk and fell from 3rd to 1st floor
inspiritaion to manny i belive
1 qn that caught my attention was
do you wsh tht you could stand again?
he replied:yes. i do. my doc told me that in about 10 years time i could stand up again.meanwhile i will just pray to god.seekin for help
smth liddat one lah
yeahhs
i need Him to fill me more!!


Nigel blogged at
2:39 PM

Sunday, August 13, 2006

just returned from svc
spiritually high that simon accepted christ
haha
yeahs
but i cant go svc for about a month or so
dad grounded me
caus prelims are like 2 weeks away
28 aug start and end 25 sept
1 month or so
intensive studyin
rather sad cant go
but anyways
god is everywhere!!
i gotta start usin my big and dumb brain yea
haha

dear god
thank you for this fruit
it took away the pain i was feeling
it took whatever unhappiness im feelin
it brought me happiness and joy
i will feed your sheep
for now till eternity
amen


Nigel blogged at
6:14 PM

Saturday, August 12, 2006

prayers answered!
=D
i can go svc liao
haha


Nigel blogged at
10:01 PM

lord
see this eager heart of mine
eager to go tmr
feed your sheep father
show me your wonders again
change the things that are opposin me father
change it!
because im your son
and i know that you are as eager to see me as i am
dont let the devil stop father
amen

my heartfelt prayer!(:
feel so much better


Nigel blogged at
8:18 PM

im dam dam tired
brain exercised alot
realy keepin my fingers crossed that tmr i can go svc
PRAY!


Nigel blogged at
6:10 PM

was thinkin of some stuffs
now the 1st-3rd postions in class are all believers
ok
random
anyways
today spent the whole day chionin
started since 10 now is 3
only stopped for lunch and now
short 15 min brk
dam tired
tmr dad dont allow me go svc
rahhs
STUDY
THAT C6 IS DRIVIN ME TO STUDY HARDER AND HARDER


Nigel blogged at
2:54 PM

Friday, August 11, 2006




just some random pics
yeah
was carryin inez lau's handbag!
haha
looks super gay lah
anyways
PLANETSHAKERS CONCERT WAS A BLAST
once u got in
cant soak inside the atmosphere
haha
they had dunno what thing which allow you to paint ur face
i got the words "gay boy""god's son""yingying"[written by candice chua!]"jesus rox"
haha
than they had this dance thingy
i was like tryin to do it
rather fun
praise and worship was great
testimony was shared
amen to those
=D
invitation was given out
SIMON ACCEPTED!
GOD SHOWED ME A MIRACLE
haha
life has really been horrible
but this salvaation/sheep that found its way back to god
changed everything
bad chinese results and breakup are real painful
but gods presence,gods present to me.
if more than wonderful
show me somemore miracles!!


Nigel blogged at
11:19 PM

define a bad week.
your girlfriend broke up with you
and u did terribky for ur chinese Os
c6
when u were aimin for a b3 or a2


Nigel blogged at
2:44 PM

Thursday, August 10, 2006

i feel so dumb
i keep hopin
self-destruction


Nigel blogged at
11:10 PM

in the bible
there is something that speaks about the betrayal of jesus
than he said to david or smth
jesus asked'' do u love me''
than david replied yes
jesus said feed my sheep
on the third time jesus asked the qn
david broke down to tears
smth liddat
can someone tell me that verse

that verse was given to me durin altar call
i have been thinkin about it
i wanna read it again
but i cant remember where to find it


Nigel blogged at
1:03 PM

if only we were stil together
than toms is our ani
AHHHH!!!
why the heck am i so emo
gotta be strong.
i heard some stuff from xb
nothing
just left me wanderin
perhaps it will never be
no point pressin on
it will never change
i guess if she sees this she will be happy eh
whatever
seriously
cryin at 3am really sucks
u feel so tired
u feel so painful
u cry to let those come out
my life is messy la

later got tution
morn and evenin
SIAN arhs
i think afternoon i study abit
than go out play pool
i need to lend a shoulder
i need a listenin ear

when i thought i had you, i had actually lost you
i trusted you,believed you,to get myself hurt
i thought you were different from others,
i was wrong.
i caused myself to land back into the same shit
perhaps different
caused this was worst.


Nigel blogged at
9:47 AM

omg
how emo can i get
wakin up at 3am
cryin
im such a cry baby


Nigel blogged at
9:41 AM

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

gastric attack!
arghss

anyways
met hc and don @ serangoon mrt
went city hall la
weiling so qiao was on that same train
didnt really notice
also never say hi
cant be bothered bahs
the crowd at city hall is insane
than waited for adrina b4 gg esplande
walkin around like dumb idiots tryin to find seats
but apparently found none
there was this reporter that wanted to interview me
i simply just walked away
dumb shit
than watch the parade through the ultra big screen
when fireworks came
couldnt even see a thing!
arghs
i so wanna see it la
oh ya
xb and jessica also joined us
than went changin appetite to it
curry!!
yummmy
haha
but suddenly gastric attack came
dam painful la
must have been the alchol i drank earlier
but after a while
tahan than dunno how dissapear alr
went home lo
met javier
lols
took 109 home
just thinkin.
thinkin
thinkin


Nigel blogged at
11:20 PM

major producitivity!!
finsihed 2 english papers
goin to start on my maths alr
hope to finish them asap then later go out and slack
and watch the fireworks!!


Nigel blogged at
3:03 PM

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

went for some national day prayer meetin
holy spirit is movin!!
yeahhs
can feel it

HOPE IS DREAMIN A DREAM FOR GOD

meaningful eh
haha
i really hope that i can try to avoid those issues as much as possible
and be god-centred
we pray not to change ystd
not to change the past
but to reshape the future
mould our tmr
because of our future generations
we must press on and pray
yeahhs


Nigel blogged at
10:49 PM


its not tears u see flowing.its just my love for you.after cryin i shud be fine.
the day is rather fine
had the performance
not bad
jsut that it was rather off pitched
whole sku was singin home along with us
rather fun
after that went heartland with buddies to eat
than came my haus
there was this ex marist
come to me 'eh. i also marist. help donate lei'
than i obviously wasnt feelin very good
i just say
dont want
than just stare at him
xb than just donated
cant stand his attitude
later still got tution
ZZZ
im very tired!!

the fact is as such
but im sorry i cant accept it
im still tryin
livin with that masked smile
i duno if i will cry
i dunno.
a thousand questions about you
where have i gone wrong
im just not perfect
down again again


Nigel blogged at
2:22 PM

Monday, August 07, 2006

will i still stand strong?
can i smile my way out?


Nigel blogged at
4:47 PM

tution postponed to tmr
should i go out tonite
hais
i guess not lah
alot of things to do and practise
never endin
sigh


Nigel blogged at
4:42 PM

i really dunno whats that which are want
im not perfect
sorry.

woke up late
was damm tired lahs
went to sku with my guit
lesosn was borin
but managed to scrap through
missed assembly
went for rehearsal
we are playin home, guang huai fang shi and peng you
i so think im gonna struggle
hope i dont screw up tmr
later got tution
and tons of work to do
yeahs
bye


Nigel blogged at
3:18 PM

Sunday, August 06, 2006

aida asked me and ken to perform as guitarist on national day eve
should i take up? haiz


Nigel blogged at
6:48 PM



some stupid shot i took while i was thinkin about some stuff. i dunno if u would get to read this but i just pray you do.

i really wanna mit you. i wish you could. but u cant. first your commitments. god-centred person. im fine. but u dun seem to care about me.are things suppose to end that way.perhaps it was my fault for takin it too seriously and you toyin me while i was stupidly believin.trustin you.movin on or not? i chose not.im stupid but im still hangin on. im not givin up as yet. please prove me wrong.im really lost.

CONGRATS. WATCH MY WORLD CRUMPLE RIGHT BEFORE YOUR VERY EYES


Nigel blogged at
6:37 PM

Saturday, August 05, 2006

head's very heavy
arghs
im feelin lifeless?
i dunno
i miss her
badly
=(


Nigel blogged at
6:38 PM

Thursday, August 03, 2006

went sku 2dae
hmm
rather unwilling
had pe
did some stupid survey than went to run 2.4 then play dodgeball
rather fun actualy
haha
kong is such a good catcher
i throw 3 balls
2 got caught
arghs
got sent off
managed to catch one
than the last 1 i threw
hit 2 fellas but i injured my elbow somehow or rather
im weak
zz
the rest was rather nth much le
had el oral
not bad lah
hopin to get a1 or a2 for oral if possible
later got tution
bleahs


Nigel blogged at
3:05 PM

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

any instant cure to headaches
this is bad
arghs


Nigel blogged at
5:26 PM

last night
had soarin high fever
but morn somehow or rather it dissapeared until now
afternnon
its back again
arghs
i cant do work!
sigh
low productivity
and the medicine is makin me so darn sleepy
argh


Nigel blogged at
2:12 PM

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

sick!
sigh
its feels awful
mornin was rather fine
i guess it was becaus after i drank milk than the pain started
experiencin stomach pains
headaches, feel like vomit, very weak
i tahan until 1230
before left sku
pon mr lim lesson
cannot take it
cabbed home
than went to clinic
but it was closed!
lunch break
sigh
struggled to make my way home
took a nap
than went to clinic again
i waited super long lah
i wasnt feelin well at all
anyways
paid for my medicine
at home
freakin bro didnt wnat to help me to get water
sturggled up and down
now just woke up from my sleep
still feelin rather awful
gotta keep out of oily and stuff to do wtih milk
pray for me please
it feels v uncomfortable


Nigel blogged at
6:08 PM