i bang my head against the wall to wake myself up
i failed
i tried to hold the tears welled up inside my heart
i failed again
i wanted to be the best you'd ever known
i failed again
i wanted to be that somebody that you wil never forgot
i failed again
i tried to be strong and smile
yet, i failed again

a bloody pussy i am
wth
not capable for any great things
not worth love
not worth time
should just sleep on the streets with the beggars
wake up the mind
rude and ill-mannered boy
just wake up wont you
you are not as good as u think u are
your attitude causes ppl to judge u for what you are not
the way u carry yourself,
sloppish teen
hangin arnd the streets all day
without a proper thing to do
trouble-maker
quarrelsome

what am i?
a rubbish?
a thing?
even i dont even know what i am

the heart
split from the core
blood oozin out
slow and lifeless heartbeat
grindin the heart from the inside
prolonged pains

torturous outlook
without a bright future ahead
a dark tunnel
that has all its ends locked
the key thrown away
left to rot alone

world is cold
no friends
left to fend for yourself
defensless
only left hangin
hangin on that bleak future
that hope that will pull me through

Nigel blogged at
11:50 PM