The SuperSTAR Journey of ME

This is my first ever cluster camp i have ever attended. i was particularly excited since i've been hearing so many fun stuffs happening during this camp. This camp was also very different from me, cause as many of you people will know, i have this "marist ONLY" group and cause of that, i was only close to them and only john came! xianbin, ryan(hongchow) and don didnt come! Even Lionel was not there! i felt very lonely.

On my way to Temasek, not very sure why, i was praying for the worship not to start without me. i had this urge to worship him. When i reached there, kenny brought me up to the hall and THANK GOD! they were playing games and worship was just about to start. During the worship, God said " Be Free. Be Free." i didnt understand what it meant at all.

The games were extremely fun! At night, we had a tough time making our "beds"(tables la). We didnt want to sleep on the floor cause its real dirty and HUGE spiders everywhere. We had a lot of fun deciding who sleep with who and other rubbish. I opened up. I used to think that they were a bunch of very dull people and did not want to be part of them. But i was wrong. They truly are very funny people and people that give their 100% to God.

--fastforward to the second night---caus i had to leave for wedding lunch--->

i came back just to realise that i had to dance! i was really afraid because i forgot all the steps. i went around looking for the possible dancers and managed to gather a few of my "competitors" and shared about what we know. Oh yes, Candy came to help us after that! haha. she helped us ALOT. THANKS CANDY!(:

When the dinner was about to start, all the dancers were to gather at the back of the hall. i was very very scared. My group, Group 9, had tamborines and shakers i think, to cheer on for me. i felt very very stress that i might not be able to live up to their expectations. At the back, we were arranged according to our groups and briefed about what we had to do. There was this section thats is like free dance- dance to whatever song they gave you. There was even more stress now! i dont know anything about dance, what will i have to do during that segment!? A lady (the project runway one.. i forgot her name =p) came to pray of us. i remembered clearly what she said.

"this dance is NOT for your group, its FOR God. No matter how lousy it is, just have fun!"

At that point, those words really felt senseless to me. i was really very scared. To make matters worst, everyone was rehearsing.Finally it was showtime, the first group came out and the dance was really impressive. The look at how hard the group memebers were cheering was very stressful. Once again, i thought about my group members expectations for me. i was scared. Before i knew it, i was out. There were many a times i struggled to rememeber the steps but i slowly began to have fun. i slowly began to understand what god had told me initially! Be Free. Surrender all fears to him and have fun. He had already planned for me to dance in front of everyone!! i won the consolation prize(:

There was a skit after the segment. The skit was about someone who has to learn to dance just because his company wants him to. He feels lost, dejected. then the principal (cannot remember his name also!lol) sung "Who am i". A beautiful song which i have always held it close to me. The leaders were told to pray for us. i was shagged by all the things happening around me, i felt very very tired. and God gave me rest! Hallelujah!

I LOVE MY BROTHERS NOW!! <3

Nigel